Hypodermia
It’s been 25 years since I stuck a needle in my arm.
I’m thankful for that.
Believe me.
But I was just at my doctors
For a physical
And they drew blood...
I was fascinated.
It happens every time
That I am there
Under scrutiny
And I don’t say anything
To any of the nurses.
They have no idea that I’m turned on.
That’s my addiction.
I’m romancing the needle.
I’m sexxxing it up.
I am immediately shot back
To when I was getting high
When I torqued my veins
And stuck that sharpie in.
And I’m now waiting for that rush...
It doesn’t come.
I’m sitting on the medical table
Watching the nurse
Fill several vials
Full of my blood
And I’m just thinking
How good it would feel
To be getting loaded right now.
25 years later
And I’m still having these thoughts.
That’s the power of addiction.
When she is done
She put’s a gauze and a bandaid
On the tiny hole
And tells me to hold it up for a moment.
I never did that.
I’d just relax and blood would trickle.
Later when I see the bruise
That this tiny prick has caused
I have to wonder
How I lived with evidence
Up and down my arms
For so long.
The track marks on my junkie skin
Are long gone
And ironically
The old bastard is in remarkably
Excellent health.
But the track marks in my junkie mind
Are still there
A quarter of a century later.
Not that I’m going to get high
But I sit here
On top of a medical table
In my doctor’s office
Thinking about
This needle
And how sexy
It is.
That’s a bit fucked up
My friends.
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